from the england rewrite:
“He watched Sidney moving ahead of him, knew that underneath the worn coat and suit moved not a man but something both more and less, something Jules would never know for himself. They were monstrous, unnatural, but they were his family. He wanted to abandon them even as he wanted to heal them; he wanted to find Laurel and flee with her, take her someplace where the sun never set and he could see the light in her face always; he knew he never would.”